The Monk. Calais.

My heart smote me the moment he shut the door — Psha! said I, with an air of carelessness, three several times — but it would not do: every ungracious syllable I had utter’d crowded back into my imagination: I reflected, I had no right over the poor Franciscan, but to deny him; and that the punishment of that was enough to the disappointed, without the addition of unkind language. — I consider’d his gray hairs — his courteous figure seem’d to re-enter and gently ask me what injury he had done me? — and why I could use him thus? — I would have given twenty livres for an advocate. — I have behaved very ill, said I within myself; but I have only just set out upon my travels; and shall learn better manners as I get along.